Ok, so my last post was a big whiney mess...oh well...Im 19 weeks pregnant and get a weekly hormone shot so maybe Im entitled it on occasion.   Speaking of pregnancy, Wednesdays the big day....ultrasound day!  We have out names picked and are anxiously awaiting (And hoping the little one cooperates and is not shy) to find out which we get to use!

I've been thinking pink but maybe just wishful thinking as I wont lie, ribbons and curls appeals to this mama.  However, I will be equally thrilled with a 3rd bundle of snips, snails, and puppy dog tails! 

Then we hold out and hope all preventative measures work and this baby bakes another 20 weeks!  And doesn't show up in about 5 - 8 weeks like his/her brothers have.  But whatever happens, God has it under control and we are truly blessed beyond measure. 

That moment when you are having a bad day...but realize no one really cares.  If you post it on facebook you are a dramatic mess and get ripped apart, because you aren't allowed bad days.  So you cry by yourself for a while.   Then you decide to blog about it, but know no one really reads that anyway.  So you realize you are just a rambling hormonal mess and come back later and delete it and return to your solitary self loathing....hormones are fun...then add in extreme stress, inability to do what needs done, but everyone nagging about you doing it anyway...yeah..that.  Feeling like an absolute failure at all things wife and motherhood related.