Happy 4th Birthday Isaac

My dear Isaac.  Today you turn 4.  Oh what these 4 years have been.  You have changed so much, but you have changed me.  You made me into something I never was before, a mommy.  You made me stronger.  You made me tougher.  You caused me to find a strength that I never knew was within me.  4 years ago when I was pregnant I had a fairy tale image how everything would go, you must have laughed at that one when you tossed it out the window and came a full 12 weeks early.  (and your brother the same 3 years later, but thats another blog....)  You always were stubborn, but your stubborness was the key to your survival.  As frustrating as that can be as your  mother, don't lose it, it will serve you well in today's world of conformation and peer pressure.

Today you turn 4.  I must say 3 was a challenge for me, and I'm sure for you.  Age 3 started hard for you, with mama missing your party and you having your first overnight stay, which resulted in a week at grandma's and a baby brother.  A baby brother who took up a lot of Mama and Daddy's time with HIS 3 months in the NICU.   But one day, you will be glad for him.  (Probably when he stops chewing on your toys.)  I still feel sorry for missing your birthday and getting to go on that "rweally cool ambalance (ambulance) ride" without you.  Trust me, its not all its cracked up to be (as you learned in February when you had your own).  This year you learned to use the big potty, for which I am thankful.  You learned to count to 11.  We are learning your ABCs.  This year you also got Mommy to stay home and be the kind of mom I always wanted to be.  We've done storytime, shopping trips, park trips, ice cream stops, and various "fun" things.  We started homeschooling PreK.

I'm sorry for sometimes NOT being the cool mom.  For having to give spankings, time outs, and for sometimes just flat out losing my temper.  But its because I love you and I just want you to learn whats best and right.  And well..you are stubborn.  You like things YOUR way.  And if you dont like it your response of "I think NOT"  Oh Isaac...you are my little sweetie and my little stinker.  

So Happy 4th Birthday to my Boo Boo, my little man, my big boy.