Took a super cute pic of Isaac Saturday night to post online. Had the cute little boy holding a sign that said "Big Brother to B". Sunday morning I deleted it because he was no longer a big brother to be.
On one hand I said "yay, well I can actually get pregnant" but then the doc called and said that it was just a hormonal abnormality (most likely) called a chemical pregnancy, and there was never anything there. Just my body being my own worst enemy and hating me.
I'm ok. I don't really feel like talking about it. Don't take it personal.
It sucks. I hate it. I am angry at myself for actually believing I was pregnant and making a big production over it. I am upset that I got so attached to something that was never there. Yeah I was dreaming and planning and thinking of names for a baby that was just a figment of my body's imagination in the attempt to make me suffer.
So yeah, it sucks. My heart hurts. But I'll get over it.
Monday, October 11, 2010
Soo...um...yeah
Posted by Erin at 12:44 PM
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I'm sorry.
I am sorry Erin, praying for you <3
It's not true Erin. There was a baby. Your body did not trick you. If your hormones were high enough to register a positive pregnancy test then conception occurred. Medical definitions are not Christian definitions. You were pregnant Erin. You didn't imagine it. You didn't believe a lie. Don't believe the lie now.
(((ERIN)))
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